Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Reconnecting

We have had a real stressful week. My husband is off on the weekends and Mondays.
That means we try to spend as much time together as a family as we do apart.
I for some reason was feeling out of sorts on Sunday and Monday and not following the
agreed upon rules we have in place. I was being sassy and I will admit my attitude was
horrible. I would get upset at something and stomp around and then be sorry I was acting
that way the next. I think that should have been a good indication that I was stressed to the max
and could have benefited from asking for a stress relief spanking. But then again since I was not myself
I figured that my HOH should be the expert mind reader and pick up on the fact that I need an outlet.
Well he did! After securing me by the back of the hair and leading me to bend over the bed I realized
That I should have took out my journal and wrote out what was bothering me and that I really do
not like punishment spankings when I have upset my husband. As I laid there with my face in the bed
I heard him moving things around in his drawer where the implements were and did not even look up
to see what I was in store for. I received 5 strokes with the loopy john thing on each side and then
I lost count of everything else. By the time he finished and took me in his arms to cuddle me I was
sorry, ashamed and more submissive then I have ever felt. I also could not describe the secure
warm, loved feeling that I felt. I am sitting here carefully might I add, but my attitude is great and
I feel like we reconnected last night and I have been renewed. It was definitely transformational
for me and I know that If I want to make the choice to misbehave in the future I can count on finding
myself in the same situation. I love my husband for stepping up and taking responsibility for correcting
and guiding me. And next time I will just ask for a spanking.



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Saturday, June 26, 2010

Didn't see it coming

Well last night while watching TV with my DH I apparently had an attitude.
I was in a good mood, a little stressed but still in a good mood.
Usually I can forsee when I am going to be spanked and my behavior changes quickly
so when he told me to close the window my heart dropped into my stomach.
I knew it was not because he was cold LOL. So, I ended up with a hot red bottom.
He took off his belt and made me Assume the position on the bed. Needless to say
I am sitting carefully this morning with a whole new attitude. He also found the loopy john thing we have
and I remember why I need to keep a good attitude. The good thing about it though is I have almost no stress this morning and I am looking forward to car shopping today.
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Saturday, June 5, 2010

Respect



I recently read The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands.
I thought that it was great. One point that really stood out to me was,
we treat a stranger knocking on our door at two a.m. better than our
family who matters the most to us. The CDD website has a poem which I love
to read and softly reminds me that this true. The poem is called I ran into a stranger.
I read it everyday and it keeps my eye on the ball so to speak. I have really made a
conscious effort to treat my loved ones with respect. If I was to die tomorrow I
could be replaced in a job, however I could never be replaced to those who matter
most to me they would feel that loss forever. It is important that while I am here
I treat my family like each day could be my last. I am putting a link to the page
where I found the poem. http://www.christiandomesticdiscipline.com/i_ran_into_a_stranger.html