Bargain Hunting

I have found some internet sites that I would like to share.
This really can come in handy when your HOH gives you a limit and from past experience
you have learned that you better not go over that limit.
First check here for money that may be owed to you.
Missing Money- if a business owes you money and can not locate you
the money goes to the stated unclaimed asset fund after a certain amount of time
The website is the best way to find out if you have unclaimed assets. It is The National
Association of Unclaimed Property Administrators which I personally never knew existed
Their website is www.unclaimed.org
Next there is the Nationwide Online Police Auction site.
Their address is www.propertyroom.com Here you can shop for bargains that are available
when property is seized by the police.
There is also the site for the U.S. Marshalls office which is www.bid4assets.com click on
U.S. Marshalls.
The U.S. Airlines unclaimed baggage site is another cool place to look for some bargains
that address is www.unclaimedbaggage.com click on lets shop.
And do not forget the U.S. Postal service also hold auctions  every year at their Mail Recovery
Centers in Atlanta, Georgia, and St. Paul Minnesota. I do not have their address yet. I will look.
If you are looking for a home you may want to check out Freddie Mac which is officially
The Federal Home Loan Mortgage Corporation. Their website is www.homesteps.com where
you can browse their foreclosed homes listings. The Federal Government also has a
site where they sell seized and surplus property it is www.propertydisposal.gsa.gov/property 
I have always wondered if you can really find good deals like a house for a thousand dollars  LOL!

Am I Asking For To Much

Since starting DD I have noticed that I want more.
When I say this I mean that I am wanting to take our exchange of power
up another level. I do not know why I feel this way. It could be all of the positive
effects that it has on me and that it makes me feel so secure and content.
I have never been as sure of anything in my life. Yesterday I texted my DH saying that I wanted him to
be more dominate with me. It is like a door opened a crack and I am peeking out, when I want throw it open and walk through. I want more rules and I want him to be strict. For me DD changes the way I view things, my thought process is different than it used to be and I love it. I would never want to go back to a vanilla relationship. On that same note I told my DH that I wanted more. I eventually want him to tell me how to dress, wear my hair,  I want him to exercise his authority often simply because he can. I want him to be confident knowing that in my eyes there will never be anyone who could ever replace him  He holds my heart in his hands for eternity.                                      

Gotta Love Technology

I know I love it. There is so much you can do to keep in touch. My husband works 2 hours away and that makes for a really long day. Commuting and a 10 hour shift. We now both have phones and can text each other
those really pointless messages. It is great. If I want to say something to him it is like he is right here. Not to mention pictures too. I can not believe I went this long without one. I really do feel more in touch with him. And there are some other really cool features on there. Like a GPS locator for each other and navigation. To bad it doesn't tell you which isle he is on in walmart. I think that relating to DD this is also a great communication tool. I still get a little shy about saying some things to him face to face now I can just work up enough nerve to hit send. I used to write him letters and then disappear while he read them. No more of that.

Oral Sex And Submission

I have to say that satisfying my husband orally does wonders in making me feel submissive.
I thoroughly enjoy it. I am powerless when it comes to controlling his thrusts and when he
grabs the back of my head I am aware that I am his to use as he wants and it is his pleasure
I am to seek. One of my needs in our marriage is to be possesed. I need to feel owned,
I am his property and I have given him full consent to use me for his needs. Some wives are
made to perform oral sex as part of their punishment. That is where it can get tricky. Since I enjoy
servicing him orally then pairing this with a spanking it would be pleasurable for me and defeat the
purpose. I would then be more likely to repeat the behavior and not learn from it. Now pairing this
with a good girl spanking and watch out! Hopefully my husband stumbles across this post and
agrees with me.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    

Evaluating Your DD Plan

LOL sounds complicated. In simpler terms its in with the new out with the old. Unless you decide to keep it the way it is now. Since communication is vital in DD, you probably keep a journal of some sort and your HoH/Husband/Master, reads it, then he will probably know what areas you are struggling with and what you have learned. I have been having a hard with everything this week. I am finding it very hard to stay in a submissive mind frame. This in turn is making me crazy because I find I am at my happiest when I am submissive. It is like a very powerful drug to me. When I am constantly aware of my submission and acting so, I am in Domestic Bliss. I love to walk around smiling because I have this wonderful secret, my husband takes me in his hands and strives to help me in the areas we have targeted. I have given him my full consent to make the decision to punish me when I need it. I know that he struggles with this since he was raised to believe that you never hit a girl. Most men I know were taught that while growing up. That can make a husband hesitant to discipline his wife. However, when you finally get over that hurdle, your faced with the fact that the punishment is meant to hurt and your wife is probably going to protest loudly, at some point and then there are bruises,welts,and tears he has to get used to. I can honestly say that when we started it looked like my sit spot had been ran through some kind of torture device. LOL he was really bothered by this and it was not really significant to me at all. For me I do not feel properly punished unless I am taken past my limit and I cry. I do not cry easily so it is a very humbling experience. I need that outlet. But usually when I start to cry he stops and I do feel a little let down.  It is alot more effective to if it I can feel it when I sit for two or three days after it happens. We are learning still. But so far it has brought nothing but positive changes to our life. In fact I would like to converse with him about adding more rules and changing some around. I have learned that I like ALOT of structure. And I never have a dull day. I think the only punishment that we do not use is mouthsoaping. Even though if he chose to use it then he would not get any objection from me. That is because I trust him and I know it for my own good. So hopefully tonight when he gets home he will have a little energy left to evaluate our plan.
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      

Wire Whip

I had the unfortunate opportunity to meet this implement again last night.
Since it was Friday our kids decided they wanted to stay with their grandparents.
This includes our youngest one who never wants to stay over. When it was time to
go she kissed us and said see you tomorrow. We arrived home alone and I had every
intention of asking for a spanking to improve my mood. I was still a bit uptight and
wanted to release some nervous tension. Well I never got a chance to asking but....
I did get spanked. My mouth has been the source of my displeasure alot lately.
Anyways, I was told to get up come around to his side of the bed and take off my clothes.
I was then told to kneel. Which I did. I was thinking that since he had stated earlier he was
really tired there was no point in even asking for a spanking. Well after about 10 minutes on
my knees he told me that I was going to be spanked and it was going to hurt, because
I needed to learn the lesson he was trying to teach. (I need to listen and not talk over him)
and I need to learn when he says to stop talking I need to stop. That is a hard one
I love to have the last word. I am working on self control but this is a sore subject. I just can not
seem to get it. Well he got out four implements and at this point I was getting nervous.
When he came to that whip he asked what do you call this thing. (it is a homemade loopy john).
Well I said a loopy john thingy. He said I call it a wire whip. I was in total agreement. All I care
about at this point is the fact that this is the worst implement that we have. It is also the most effective.
If I thought that I liked to be spanked I think I should go on to say this definitely makes me want to be
good. And isn't that the goal. Well he did warm me up and for that I am thankful.
He used the wooden spoon, hair brush, wire whip and this other black leather strap
with finger or fringe on the end. The warm up was done by hand and then came the implements with
special attention to that whip. He took his time with me and explained why it was happening.He also stopped to ask me if I was in agreement with him. I was. I barely made it through the warm up and was trying to be still. He finished with his hand which hurts just as much as the implements. At that point I was crying
and wiggling and trying to stay in position, so when I got out of position he paid special attention to my thighs.
I have asked that since I like to be spanked, he makes sure that they are past my limits. I want to learn from
this and if they are not bad and he is not strict I will end up liking them. I do not want to end up misbehaving
so I get spanked. I much prefer good girl spankings intense but with pleasure mixed in. Punishment ones must be just that. They are supposed to make me not want to repeat the behavior. And last night it hurt. I was sorry and stated so. Then I started crying because I know he hates to hurt me. And why could I not just get it.
And I woke up this morning and remembered that I had not thanked him. So needless to say I am getting ready to make him biscuits and gravy and serve him his coffee. I am going to try really hard to not make the same mistakes I made yesterday . Maybe then I will get the spanking I like. Have a good day everyone!!

Happy 4th

We have decided that we are going to stay home this year
and have our own fireworks show in our own yard.
Grandma and grandpa from both sides are coming over. I love
the 4th. I do not however, love the fact that there are people
out there that think those couple of beers they had earlier do
not count because they also had a meal or a cup of coffee. I
think everyone knows what I am talking about. Drinking and driving.
It is never OK. And if you have a license to drink then you
should be mature and responsable enough not to get behind the wheel.
Having said that I wish everyone a Fun and Safe weekend.
And do not forget to thank our military men and women.
I have to share this story because it really bothered me when it happened.
I was standing in line at a gas station in Vacaville, CA  when
a service member from Travis AFB walked in.
She got in line to pay and out steps another women who
loudly claimed that she was next in line "Sorry".  (The service woman mind you
was in full dress did I mention that, duh, that's how I knew who she was.)
anyways, after big mouth pays, respected one pulls out her wallet and realizes that
she can't find her atm card. well the cashier told her to bring the payment back in later
(I think she was a regular) which of course big mouth heard and proceeded to cause a scene.
Stating that she was sick and tired of "people in the service" getting special treatment.
And she probably knows exactly where it is. AND she is worse than a panhandler at least they
really don't have any money. And then started the line about how its the taxpayers money
paying her salary and she won't even pay for her gas.
WOW I can tell you I had not developed my submissive qualities yet (smile)
and after I thanked the service woman for just being who she was,
I turned to big mouth and told her I am so glad I do not have to know you.
And that I hopefully will never have the opportunity to see you again

Todays thoughts

I love the fact that I am a disciplined wife. I do however have to be cautious of the neighbors finding out.
I recently had a friend over and the subject of submission came up. Why has it became such a shameful word.
I am not ashamed by the fact that I chose to live my life this way. I think that those of us who chose to let our husbands lead know somethings that others don't. She asked if I was happy and I responded by telling her that sometimes I am so happy and content I want to share it with the world. She also made a valid point about the dangers a submissive woman faces. She was also curious about a woman being forced into submission by an abusive husband. I stressed the fact that what we do is consensual and agreed upon. I am the one that brought this lifestyle idea to my husband. I believe though that there are definitely some men that do not deserve a womans gift of submission. DD is not something to be taken lightly. It is not a game. This life if lived right is so rewarding. I would never go back to living a vanilla life again. I know my husband agrees this is like having your cake and eating it too. Of course it is not for everyone and this is just my own opinion and how it has impacted me. I am at my best when I am in a constant submissive state. I will stress also that this only involves submission to my husband. No one else. I trust my husband completely and have no regrets about the choice I make every morning. So many men use their dominance the wrong way. Men and women are very different and men are stronger than us. I personally like to have my strong dominant husband leading my down this journey called life. I love the fact that my husband will put his foot down and set boundaries for me. I also like the fact that I have rules to follow. I want accountability to my husband and expect that he will properly punish me if I need it. I also know that I belong to him and like to the feeling of being owned. DD fulfills so many of my needs. I am so grateful for the life I live.